Today is the 2nd deathoversary of Eric "OG Style" Woods (July 5, 1970 - January 3, 2008)
Words escape me. I know he rolled over and wrote a rhyme in his grave over what's happened to the "fam" he knew. He was truly the rock and we didn't realize it. I've watched my flowers for him wither for 2 years and crumble at that sheer mistake of not giving them to him in time. Such a precious life lost, and the lesson left was misfired. I don't know what the fam is thinking... We lost so much only to lose twice as much in shame and pride, then call it "growth, peace, and progress". Love is stronger than pride...how did we forget that!
I almost lost my cousin on NYE...my Lil BROTHER. The value of his life to me is equivalent to my own...meaning, he dies, I DIE. For those who know me, know I've never really put much value in my own life. My life's worth has been nestled in the lives I've changed and those who've changed mine. Both elements being tested this way in 2 days rudely awakened me to some more...more...more harsh realities.
WE...stood at the foot of OG's hospital bed, in the end, and said "You better off than all of us my nikka, save me a seat". And the only life left was memories...
My cousin...had a choice. He could have given up...He COULD have chosen to give up...... I have no words for that other than.... I can't say I would have had the strength or desire to make the same choice. Where does that leave my head now...
OG's passing in addition to being tragic, it was an opportunity for enlightenment. Somehow all Affected parties were enlightened in their own way and the result was additional tragedy. I mean "Are any of us happy...even those who SHOULD be, are still "missing elements"? I've never seen misguidance go so far and affect so many people at once and continually. The answers become the questions. The blood becomes the water. The lies become the truth. The wants masquerade as needs. When, in essence, we've lost so much more than we THINK we gained.
I have a lot of thinking still to do. I hope some others are inspired to think outside the boxes they've created around their lives.
