Great Mistake…

I can't explain
what I feel
Feelings that shouldn't be real
She left my life
Didn't look back
My heart in tow
My face was cracked
Then she called
What's up with that
All I knew was love her back
Then she spoke
Hearts on melt
Trying to understand what she felt
Questions poured my mind a glass
Let her tell one lie, the last...
Then she changed her tune again
Reminders of us being more than friends
Lost my mind
Thinking back
Surrogate mother wives
Kids to love us back
Going to work everyday and back
Greeted with sunshine
A smile so great
Only one that made me masturbate
Didn't have to cuz the love was real
Passionate kisses and a brand new feel
Touching her face
Unguarded me
Laying in her arms
Transcended me
So comfortable I fell asleep
Never before had that happen to me
Work day melted off of me
ONLY SHE
Did that for me
But she felt out of place with me
So she sought out baby V
Told her it's not really me
I'm just as far as she can she
Dropped my glass
Couldn't see straight...
She thought I was a mistake
Didn't know what to make of that
Heart flopping in broken glass
Feeling like she was about the cash
Blinded by a betrayed heart
I called her up and ripped apart
Said things that I shouldn't say
I didn't even really feel that way.
She was lying
I was crying
Pain and anger spoke loud for me
Didnt hear her when she said
I'm sorry
It won't happen again
Please forgive me
That's what she said
Now it's nonstop in my head.
All those things I shouldn'ta read
All those things I shouldn'ta said
All turned to
A lifetime of regrets
Just too hurt to hear the words
Couldn't be civilized no more
Hurt turned to rage
That started to burn
I know I was wrong
I know I was
Cuz she'd become
My definition of love
Words came out
Brash and rough
I didn't let up
She had enough
Then my heart start burning up
Couldn't see past that one fuck up
Tried my best to pull it back
She probably thought I was on crack
And I kinda was, but more than that
My heart was cracked, it fired back
I know I was wrong for that
She will never come back
My greatest mistake
And I'm to blame for that...