Strange Existence

I’m in limbo. I’ve been stripped of life as I know it. I’m left with loss, debt, shame, fear, loneliness, foolishness, inhibition, indifference, and complete self worthlessness.

There was an encounter…

I was pushed to the edge, threatened, violated and forced to defend myself.

Is there something I should miss
You know
something more than your kiss
Should I think more of you than this
You made me feel worthless
Why am I even giving you this
Your love was
Toxic
Full of taint and cancer
Our chemistry mirrors
Runnin with scissors...

How am I going to do this...

I’m brainstorming...about what the hell I’m gonna do about income and shelter. I lost my job  and my home and I CANNOT bring myself to tell anyone related to me. My fam knows, but not my relatives don’t. I’ve always been very independent. Now I have no independence and I’m getting in the way...